“Where does it hurt exactly?”
Here. Pointing to the area just below lower back, around buttocks.
“Ok, I want you to try out these actions and let me know which hurts.”
“Bend down and try to touch your toes. Does it hurt?”
Yes, but not all the way down, only at the initial 60 deg curve.
“On the scale of 1-10, how bad is the pain?”
How do you answer that question? What does 10 stand for? Will I pass out at 10? Then it will probably be unbearable at 5.
1-2 (Why am I even here if it isn’t paining 5 or above?)
When a doctor asks you about pain why is the pain always feel less than what it felt at home?! I felt a bit stupid not being able to pinpoint the problem though I knew my movement is restricted, it isn’t what it used to be.
After a few more exercises, we located the problem. 2-3 sessions later I felt new as before. No more ice packs at home! No more pain when I needed to bend to pick something off floor. Its funny how you notice your daily actions when you are not able to do them as smoothly. How many times we have to bend just to get dressed: putting on underpants/pants/socks/shoes. Now I am fine again. Soon I will be able to row again!
Snap! Something just snapped inside. Sharp pain. Fuck. Will I drop this? This is food for a 100 people who have come here to sit and meditate. Time stood still. I can’t drop this. All focus on the weight. Take a few steps and reach the nearest platform. Dispose of the weight. Reach for a chair and sit down. Fuck.
I am in early thirties and incapable of picking up at 10 kg weight from the ground! What the fuck!!! Is it because of rowing? I don’t want to row ever again if it means I would be compromising with my basic abilities. Panic.
Doc! I thought I was well now! Desperation.
“Your core is very weak. Especially the back. Due to the lot of stress on the back lately, it is still in a delicate stage. The muscles aren’t very strong around that area so it the backbone gets the burnt.” After a session of a myofascial release I felt much better. Calmer. But I was still uncertain. I have felt better before. It was misleading.
Today is the DBS Marina Regatta. The races I wanted to participate in.
Annichaar. Uncertainty. A good lesson for a control freak like myself! Sports teach you almost everything you need to learn in life! Persistence, perseverance, uncertainty, patience, discipline, motivation. And it teaches you when to stretch yourself beyond your fears. It teaches you that there will be many more chances to look forward to.